Learning some basics2

I said I'd hardly ever made out with the men I had sex with. The opportunities were rare and I always felt that it was "too gay for me". I thought of myself as a closeted man and I wasn't gay. I just liked meeting secretly with men and having sex with them. As I got into visiting with my closeted man friend I'd have my cock out as his front door opened so he could see and feel how horny I was to have sex with him. I'd always felt that I was versatile leaning towards being a cocksucker. I'd fucked some men occasionally. A couple of times at a video store, once on my way home from work with a number of men watching and a few times late at night at rest areas. But with my friend when we started fucking I soon realized he loved feeling my cock pushing into his asshole and told me that's why he answered my post. For the first time in my life I was being a top for a man I was having sex with. Around the time I made my demand I'd started to be more aggressive with him. I'd take my cock out as I approached his front door and put his hand on it as he was shutting it. I knew it made him nervous that a neighbor might see but it felt nasty sexy to me. After we started fucking he asked me to fuck him missionary and soon most times I was there, even if I was fucking him doggie, when he knew I was going to cum he'd flip us over and spread his legs and I'd move up and into him and he'd make soft sounds as I came. Early on he started to pull me close and kiss me as I came. I'd never been into making out with men and the first time I was surprised and pulled back some. After a few times I realized he really wanted this and after I started fucking him bare I liked how dirty and sexy it felt having secret sex with this man and I soon would treat him like he was a nasty cocksucker who became a complete cock slut when his door closed I made him be on his knees as soon as it shut and I'd have my shaft pushed into his mouth and before we hardly spoke I be holding his head and telling him what a slut he was and how glad he answered my post. He'd try to kiss me hello sometimes but I'd make him suck me first so when we kissed I'd taste my cock in him. I liked being an aggressive top with him and make him take my cock at his front door I would fuck him to finish off but as we became more familiar we fucked missionary more often and soon when he pulled me close to kiss I would end up kissing him back passionately. I had mixed feelings about it but I liked being able to be openly sexual with him. It felt dirty and sexy and turned me on what we did when I visited. When he pulled me close and started kissing me I was hard and deep in his ass and the sex was nasty and hot. Since then I've been a top for a few men and I enjoy making out with them